Yes, I decided that I'm leaving this 5-year old blog of mine making this entry the 203rd entry I made. And nope, I'm not deleting this account just leaving--permanently. This serve as a 'remnant' of my stay here. My time here was indeed memorable and not to mention worthwhile. So I just want to bid farewell formally as I can--drama aside.

 

It's harder than I thought to start this entry. So I'll just start by asking myself questions instead.

What's the reason you're blogging here? Why Tabulas?

~I'm stalking someone here--straightforwardly. I'm not contented commenting on her as a guest. I want to subscribe to her daily rants as friends entries are filtered in Tabulas. Unfortunenately, she's not updating anymore. Telling her how I am inspired by her writing probably wont reach out to her at this time. But it's ok.

Eventually, I started filling my blog with useless rants, then random thoughts for the day, gradually evolving these thoughts to a coherent, well-said entries. I was pleased with the outcome. I was a self-proclaimed writer then people started to notice this knack of mine. All this endeavors rooted out by just being inspired with a person. I (felt) I had no talent but having had the ability to write my thoughts eloquently felt like an achievement to me, along with it was also enhancing my english prowesses.  I even had the chance to be part of our theater club in high school as a script writer with this developed hobby. Then I started writing stories, I literally fell in love with writing. I was carried away with my own thoughts as I process every single thing in my head.

 

Why am I leaving?

1. I'm busy. I can no longer manage this blog much like before. Now I can see the difference between college and HS. In HS, I could be concerned with such trivial things and even have the time to blog it, unlike now. Also, I got a lot of time in my hands then. Just imagine the time I allot in drafting my entries, changing layout (READ: via HTML) and managing in general. It takes a lot of time. Whatever, what I mostly blab about here was that of trivial pursuits, I was a growing teeneager then. Still in the path of confusion and self-discovery. I think I've matured enough to keep petty stuff as it is. But in the process of writing I was able to find my true self (oops, cheesy line!) If I wasn't able to pour my hearts out as a problematic , spoiled teeneager with bottled up emotions I might end up slashing my wrist like an emo. But heck, I was an emo, quite an emo.  I've realized that after rereading my entries--and totally laughed at some. 

I'm not an activist to constantly blog about daily happening in and out of my life nor I am not a paid writer who do writing for a living to be obliged to write. It still beats me though I did not end up taking journalism or any english related course. Having said that, hopefully God has better plans for me.

 

Ok, I'm wont be making this any longer, seemingly in an attempt to write a novel. But I say this again: I'm really grateful with my time here, it wasn't a waste for sure. Things has really change, my views, attitudes change. This blog has reflected a part of my high school life and I have seen the contrast of my past and present.

Big thanks to Tabulas, for hosting this blog (which in truth was just added bandwitdth, haha!) To my friends here, thanks for reading/commenting. Though we could only extend our relationship online, whether you came and go.

 

Yes, the ARCHIVES is our friend now. I'll be rereading some. And of course net junkie as I am will continue to be online and open online accounts and updating a very bit from time to time. I'll be hanging around @:

 

Facebook:

My twitter: http://twitter.com/imari07 just like a blog, only diminished by a phrase

Multiply:http://ice107.multiply.com/ for picture heavy updates and upcoming events (mostly cosplay)

 

Smiley time!    

 

 So...I'll be leaving then. Thanks for reading and goodnight!

Once I purge all in my head, ineviatable suffering of mental diarrhea ensues. Hence, nothing is retained.

 

It can't be helped.

It’s not that I refuse to talk about my life recently here, when a blog should most likely contain the 'what-I’m-doing' status and daily happenings of the owner, it’s just that I don’t feel like writing them all here because after all my life is but mundane, typical, and it will bore you out if I’ll narrate it in detail. I presume that there will be hiatus in my blogging activity for the meantime. All I do nowadays is to procrastinate, study and probably sleep. Nothing happens really as exciting as days during summer. Due to the presence of school, I am programmed to do limited things, mostly heavy but boring tacks such as school work.

I’m missing stuff, getting behind and I feel the urge to get a life.

HIATUS for now…maybe.

Meme thing...tagged again...and had fun answering :D


Info
[ ] I am shorter than 5'4. - ):
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes – always D:
[x] I have many scars
[ ] I tan easily - though I'm tanned enough to begin with
[x] I wish my hair was a different color – so I don’t have to buy wigs for cosplay =D
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I have/I've had braces. – oh boy I wish!
[x ] I wear glasses – now I wear contacts…glasses are for geeks and geezers…hehe
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger – strange though…and I was with my mom then and guess what, she didn’t agree with the stranger
[ ] I have more than 2 piercing.
[x] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents – my mom was like: ”If you curse your siblings, you curse me too!” You know, the PI thing…
[x] I've run away from home – ooohhh freeedooom!!! *wants to do that again*
[x] I've been kicked out of the house - *bad childhood *
[x] My biological parents are together
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old
[x] I want to have kids someday – it’s a fulfillment ya know
[ ] I've lost a child

School/Work
[x] I'm in school – and it sucks…
[ ] I have a job
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school – who doesn't?
[ ] I almost always do my homework – not at all
[x] I've missed a week or more of school – when I was in prep…we had no money for schooling >:
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired

Embarrassment
[ ] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry
[x] I've peed from laughing – oops…it was a secret…hehe
[x] I've snorted while laughing – an embarrassing factor for me..yes
[ ] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something – I glued my hand to my other hand
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public.

Health
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment
[ ] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[ ] I've broken a bone
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.
[ ] I've had measles

Traveling
[ ] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[ ] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan – not even in dreams
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe
[ ] I've been to Africa - I prefer to be in front of the computer all day than traveling, with that I have friends from US, Singapore, Malaysia, Uruguay, Italy, Poland and Germany..who needs traveling with that?

Experiences
[ ] I've gotten lost in my city.
[ ] I've seen a shooting star
[ ] I've wished on a shooting star
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas – when I was a kid and ran away from home
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator –once in a hotel for fun XD
[ ] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[ ] I've played spin the bottle
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car
[ ] I've been Skiing.
[x] I've been in a play – I’ve been in a drama club when I was in high school…and my role in our play sucks…not to mention humiliating
[ ] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[ ] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone – to my siblings and to my nerd classmates way back
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
[x] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a relationship
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
[ ] I miss someone right now.
[ ] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back – ouch…thanks for reminding
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did – yeah..pakipot pa
[ ] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality
[x] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex – I was studying in an all-girls school grade school and high school…well what could you expect. Besides, some girls are more handsome than guys
[x] I've had a crush on a teacher – he was cute and I was young and stupid
[ ] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[ ] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger

Honesty/Crime
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am – as always…
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world – does that me having magical powers count? :3
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school – muntikan na!
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight
[ ] I've been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol
[x] I've consumed alcohol
[ ] I regularly drink.
[x] I've passed out from drinking – I always passed out when I drink…that’s the reason why I drink
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've smoked weed
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[x] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[x] I'm anorexic or bulimic – that was before…
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it – and paid for it hardly
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose – especially during boring lectures which more likely occur nowadays
[ ] I've woken up crying.

Death and Suicide
[ ] I'm afraid of dying – No, if you like to live…you should be ready to die. Dying is part of living
[ ] I hate funerals – I love funerals…it’s like a grand reunion of relatives and friends with lots of good food. The irony goes on: death is what brings people together
[ ] I've seen someone dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide – she called me one night crying in the phone saying: “I’ll slash myself if you don’t call my BF!” Then the next day she was in school looking alright
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[ ] I've planned my own suicide.
[x] I've attempted suicide – you know I hate this life
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[ ] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[x] I own something from The Gap – a plastic bag
[ ] I own something I got on e-bay.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie – a shirt I stole from our ‘Lost and Found’


Random
[ ] I can sing well.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily
[ ] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs
[ ] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[ ] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[x] I twirl my hair
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[x] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[ ] I bake well.
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue – that’s too much of a choice
[ ] I've worn pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun
[ ] I am in love with love
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes
[x] I eat fast food weekly - *peer pressure*
[x] I believe in ghosts – o_0
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[ ] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate – I love anything sweet!
[ ] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games
[ ] I'm good at remembering faces
[ ] I'm good at remembering names.
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
[x] All of those are answered honestly – that’s why all are as weird as it gets

I won't tag anyone. Tag yourself if you want :>

I was sick. I hate being sick. And who wants to be anyway? When it does happen, I feel I get way far behind. I had a case of fever/ingestion/hyperacidity/excessive vomiting/can’t eat all at the same time. I have to miss school, miss my history, anatomy, and euthenics class for that. Pity. Others are preparing for work while I’m stuck in my bed literally the whole day. What a waste…

Actually I had an attempt of going to school. I took a bath, ate as usual and I was even on my way to school riding a taxi and midway, I had to told the driver to stop and went the opposite direction to go home instead. I felt a bit of self-pity there.

This is not an entry written to catch some sympathy but an indication of how I’m left behind. I have a lot of catching up to do, both school and daily life itself. I have to make up for my absences to catch up with work and to my to-do list.

*Gonna do some major update when I feel all well*