On Racism, colonial mentality, etc.
POSTED AT 11:18 AM

hottie_ice

Wala lang, napagtanto ko lang noong mga nakaraang araw, lalo na nung napanood ko yung PBB Swap.

Napansin ko lang sa ating mga Pilipino ang lubos na paghanga sa mga banyaga, parang palagi na lang mataas ang tingin natin sa kanila.

Bakit naiiba ba tayo sa kanila?

Hindi lahat ng foreigner na makita ko o makaharap ko eh tinitingala ko na, purke ba maputi sila o ano.

Pag nakakakita ako ng dayo, wala naman akong nararamdaman na espesyal sa kanila, normal lang. Minsan nga parang ‘out-of-place’ pa sila o naliligaw.

Akala ko nga ang mga hapon ang pinakamagandang lahi, pero hindi rin pala. Kapag nakakanood ako ng Music Station sa Animax eh halos gumulong ako sa kakatawa dahil ang pangit ng trip nila (bukod na lamang kina Utada Hikaru at Gackt) , walang panama sa OPM.

Tinitingala ko sila dahil magagaling sila pero ng malaman ko na pag alam nila na Pinoy ka medyo ididiscriminate ka.


Sobrang extreme ang reaksyon namin noong napanood namin yung swap between sa Pilipinas tsaka Slovenia sa PBB. Naku naman, nakita niyo naman siguro, alang kadating-dating yung Big Brother nila, kulang sa effort ang pag-welcome kay Bruce, bored na bored sila sa loob, tayo rin bored sa kanila, mukhang pabrika yung bahay, walang may hitsura---parang nakulangan sila sa budget.

Walang may hitsura, walang gwapo o maganda sa mga housemates, para sa akin wala silang dating, pero kung makahirit sila ng biro kala mo naman.

Tsaka anong liberated? Para lang silang mga hayop na nakalabas ng kulungan para gawin ang gusto nila. Dito wala masyadong liberated kasi di tayo ganun, di tayo mga asal hayop.

Tsaka sinong mas magaling mag-Ingles? Di ba tayo? Hehe…


Wala lang, ayoko ko lang yung idea na dinidiscriminate tayo o kahit sino kasi pare-pareho lang tayo (Did I just say that?)

Kaya pag-nangimbang bansa ako hindi ako manliliit…

Feeling: blah

Used or consumed?
POSTED AT 12:57 AM

hottie_ice

Okay…the petty thoughts has to come out

‘I want to use myself, not consume myself’

When do I use myself? I use myself when I apply my talents (if there are existing), when I’m producing something/s, when what I do is really helpful and that it contributes something to me and to others and also when I share or show what I have.

And when do I actually consume myself? It is when I do things that wears me out (like chores, best example but I think it’s helpful nonetheless), when I do things I don’t like and most of all consuming myself is wasting time.


Speaking about time…the time now is…1:05 am. God what am I doing in front of the computer this hour?

Listening to: Makes me wonder -Maroon 5
Feeling: thoughtful

I got tagged
POSTED AT 09:08 PM as a favorite post

hottie_ice

From camille...

Rules:
Each player of this game starts off with 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged need to write an entry of their own 15 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names. No tag backs

Ok, I’ll be honest this time…this is some major revelation for me.

Shall we begin?


1. Did I tell anyone I was OC? Well, I am. Whenever I clean my room I’ll make sure that not a single dirt is laying on the floor even if it will take me days or weeks to clean my room and also when I do, I’ll make sure I will touch every single item in it. Even in my face, I almost memorized my every single pores in it, my scars and such. Weird but true.


2. I already have gray hair. Not that I’m old, what’s weird about it I’m only 17 and almost half of my hair is gray.


3. I hate Avril Lavigne to hell, I already hated her the first time I saw her in TV singing ‘Complicated” like a slut. What an ugly bitch, she is fucked up big time… Oops sorry about the cuss and stuff. Well I just don’t like her at all.


4. I looooove playing make-up. If before I play with toys, now I play with make-up. I know few would believe If I say I’m kikay, well just a bit I guess.


5. This is a major confession for me but I had eating disorders, I was bulimic…you know who puke the food after eating so as not to gain weight, I did that, and to tell you it’s pathetic I’m pathetic…not a good idea but I’ll still do it in the most drastic measures.


6. My greatest fear is…lizard. Not really a fear but whenever I see one my stomach turns upside down…it is the most disgusting creature on earth I’ve ever seen, and some people don’t even consider it as a pest. If there is a mosquito or cockroach repellent, why not a lizard repellent. It looks like a flesh-walking, its skin is semi-transparent, you can see its organs, its stomach is green, it makes awful noises, its eyes bulges in the most disgusting ways and its tail will still move even if detached away from its body. SUPER YUCK! SUPER DISGUSTING! And also I cried like a baby when I found a lizard crawling in my room. I almost died there.



7. I have a crush on Paul Prado from the TV show ‘Call to Greatness’ aired on MTV. I think he’s cute, cool and funny. I can’t tell exactly why my types are jackasses. I use to even have a crush on Johnny Knoxville before. What I usually like in a guy is his humor, a guy that would let me suffer a bellyache from laughing his jokes, bloopers and stuff without looking like a dumbass.


8. Now we’re at it, I also have crush on Kim Stolz from America’s Next Top Model Season 5. I’ve recently seen a magazine with her in the cover and god she makes me melt right in my seat. She’s so gorgeous! What, am I a lesbian? Yes I am, or at least I was, yes I was. That is probably the aftermath of studying in an all-girls exclusive school for almost my entire school life. Sure, I like guys more than girls but I think having interests on girls like Kim are so just like my nature.


9. Here it goes…I’m an anime fan, because I grew up loving it, raving for it, so it’s kinda hard to give it off just like that. But I use to hate it before too. That was when I was obsessed with Harry Potter. My friends and I despises anime and so does the fans; the fans where we are annoyed. So I rejected it and didn’t like it for a while. It actually depends on what I’m obsessed with. When I’m too obsessed with something else, the anime fandom is set-aside for a while. But up until now I still have this childish ego loving it.


10. It has always been my dream to become a voice actor. You know, voice-overs, voice talents. Especially if I’m gonna be dubbing a cartoon! That would be so great. I want to improve my articulation for that and I will never hesitate to do it if opportunity comes even if that’s somehow unbecoming of me.


11. I want to push all my effort to learn to play piano, so eager to because I simply want to play One-winged angel on it. It is such a grand piece if played. I’ll perhaps sound like a pro playing the piece.


12. I use to stay up for like 3-5 am in the morning reading fanfiction. I’m such a nerd for fanfics. The stuff is just awesome. I don’t read books that often. I only read books when I’m forced to—I’m not fond of it but when it comes to fanfics, I can’t and will not sleep if I fail to read one.


13. I’m an idiot when it comes to house chores because you heard me, I don’t like doing chores. I can’t peel an apple’s skin, I barely knew how to cook rice (magsaing) and to iron clothes properly. Sometimes really I’m just playing it dumb but I’m that clueless in the field.


14. I have a Tabulas account because I have a crush on a Tabulas user and she’s not updating anymore.


15. I shaved one of my eyebrows before, not the whole brow but almost half of it and it looked ridiculous then. I (accidentally) shaved it to see if my father’s Gillete razor would work, it doesn’t seem to work shaving my legs so I tried it with my eyebrows and it did.


Tags: I don't know who to tag because almost all my friends here had done it. Maybe..joan, aruki, jl, jasper, karren...?

Listening to: I don't love you
Feeling: dorky

On Profanity
POSTED AT 05:14 PM

hottie_ice

Profanity n. - the use of profane language; swearing.

Okay...that was a little rhetorical, I guess.



As of now, I’m not in top shape to collect my thoughts and express what I really want faced with such a profound topic like profanity. Well, anyway, I’ll post an excerpt from a fanfiction I’m currently reading, to at least make it sound like my entry has a sense.

…

As I was mentioning earlier: Time.

Precious time I could be using to work on my car or that new robot I’m designing. That new robot that will help distribute the amount of profanity ushered when it makes its debut in my lectures as an assistant. Maximizing profanity usage constitutes better, well-motivated individuals, which leads to greater overall success and discipline.


It’s the wave of the future.


Well said, very straightforward viewpoint. Can’t say more.

Listening to: Flavor of life
Feeling: pensive?

Quizzes...
POSTED AT 02:43 PM

hottie_ice

Boredom strikes yet again....

What Be Your Nerd Type? Your Result: Drama Nerd   You sure do love the spotlight and probably have a very out-going and loud personality. Or not. That's just a stereotype, of course. Participation in the theatre is something to be very proud of. Whether you have a great voice for musicals, or astounding skills for dramas/comedies; keep up the good work. We need more entertainment these days that isn't television and video games (not that these things are bad, necessarily.)
Literature Nerd
Anime Nerd
Musician
Gamer/Computer Nerd
Artistic Nerd
Social Nerd
Science/Math Nerd
What Be Your Nerd Type? Quizzes for MySpace

Is this for real?

What mental disorder do you have? Your Result: OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) You have odd obsessions that you cannot seem to control. You may even perform rituals to make you feel better. Counting and continuously obsessing over things happens frequently.
Paranoia
Manic Depressive
GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder)
ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder)
What mental disorder do you have?

I'm really an OC am I?

Gummy Bears

You may be smooshie and taste unnatural, but you're so darn cute.

Cute eh?

Discontent
POSTED AT 05:03 PM

hottie_ice

I'm just way, way bored with this layout. Too bored, too old for my taste. And the problem is, I don't have any time to revamp it, ironically as it sounds, even it is vactaion such precoius time spending on computer is really that scarce.

I feel a little air-headed today. Totally an awkward time to talk about something or there are really no things to talk about for good.
Listening to: Tell her
Feeling: crappy

Short Summer
POSTED AT 06:37 PM

hottie_ice

It's May 26.

And that leaves us two weeks before the school starts, I suppose.

Just great, great indeed.

...yeah sarcastically.


But I really don't want this vacation to end. My friend and I had agreed that it was really short and not to mention fast. We haven't done a much things in the given time.

There's just really much that I wanna do. I hardly get bored and even if I do, I prefer to be than school work.

I cannot foresee anything exciting about school especially when most people somewhat warn that college is not as easy.

What about in college that I get anticipated of?

I cannot form a consoling answer, only bitter bile rising up and headache inducing expectations.



Well, I think I need to scram out of here and make out the rest of my summer. Or rather, stormy summer.



Feeling: pessimistic

Hmmm...
POSTED AT 05:20 PM

hottie_ice

Here we go again...taking most of my time choosing a layout and not making one.

Actually I don't have Adobe Photoshop installed in our computer and so do flash macromedia. Much as I want a good-looking layout made by me, it is impossible without the two programs. So I rely on blogskins for the umpteenth time but the site fails to give off an interesting layout this time.

I just wish I have Adobe.


Feeling: not in the mood