Humiliations
POSTED AT 05:41 PM

hottie_ice

For once...

I'm a laughing jerk

a rolling log

a singing toilet...no, I mean chair

a dog who forgots to bark

a bathtub

a gay prostitute

...criticized

Desperate.

...

i knelt

i beg

i plead

i cry

i regret

i cry

and worst i failed

but never did I give up.

Reading: Pinned
Feeling: rejected

rollerblades
POSTED AT 05:15 PM

hottie_ice

Uso pa ba and rollerblades? Hoy! sagutin nyo ko,,ano?

Pero sa palagay ko, hindi na. Sayang pa naman nasa mood akong mag-rollerblades. Pitong taon na ang nakakaraan noong huling gamit ko non.

At anim na taong gulang pa lamang ako noong unang natuto ako...ang galing-galing ko pa naman, with exhibition pa.

Pero sa kasalukuyan, kapag bigla na lamang akong mag-rollerblades sa kalsada, siguradong pagtitinginan ako ng mga tao. May mga tingin na naiingit at meron namang tingin na nawiwirduhan sakin. Ewan ko ba.

Wala naman kasing lugar dito sa Pilipinas na makakapag ganito ka ng maayos na walang epal na titingin sayo.

May minsan ngang nagsabi samin na 'pasikat' kami. Oh c'mon inggit lang talaga kayo...hehe

Sayang lang ang mood ko ngayon. Sa Xbox na nga lang ako mag-rorollerblades.

Reading: Kulam
Listening to: Signs
Feeling: nostalgic

Quizzes Galore
POSTED AT 03:49 PM

hottie_ice

Ok,,,half-day...boredom

_+_+

Your power is: Time Control

Explanation: You have the ability to
freeze, push forward or go back in time. In
good purposes it is used to prevent bad deeds,
and the opposite for evil purposes.
As a person your emotional level has been on
hold. For one reason or another emotions has
reduced and now you aren't so full of life. And
of course, this does not sadden you since you
could care less. Sometimes though you can be
hit by emotioal waves inside but you block it
all out. You don't search for something that
could make you happy since you have no hope in
that area any longer. People probably see you
as annoying because you're not involved and
just stand there. You probably don't have that
many friends either, and you feel like you are
with them because that's what you normally do.
You stick to your habits and don't appreciate
changes.
Negative aspects: One day all emotions
are gonna surface again, and that day will be
very painful. Instead it is wiser to start
up the emotional level bit by bit, so it won't
come as a big chock.

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Just how I wish I have that.

~*~*~*~


Your wise quote is: "Fashion is a
form of ugliness so intolerable that we have to
alter it every six months" by Oscar
Wilde.You are a very sarcastic person with a
sharp tongue. You may not be the one always
talking, but your mind is nevertheless
criticizing. You tend to have a cynical view on
life itself and be somewhat withdrawn with who
you really are. Society now is in you’re eyes
corrupted and you wonder how the world will
survive. And people are in your mind very
ignorant and blind to the reality.

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Suits me...

~*~*~


Your connection with darkness is because you are
evil. Yes, dear quiztaker, you have evil within
you. Lots of it. What makes you different from
the rest of the results is that your evil is
pure. I'm guessing you are a sadistic person
too. All people on this earth, according to
you, doesn't deserve to live like they do and
be happy. No, you want to see them at your
feet, obeying you until they die. You are not a
people person, unless they function as your
slaves, and you look down on everyone else...
Lonely on the top, eh?

What is your connection with darkness? (pics)
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HA?! Noooo...! Not again.

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Your element is Ice. This element may seem a little
odd, but this is a side-effect from when the
element of Water gets to hurt. Once you were a
content soul, and happy with life. But then
something happened. Not necessarily on one day,
it probably happened gradually over time. You
lost your will to care and became even more
reserved from the world. People had hurt you in
ways you do not want to remember and now you
isolate yourself from them. You have turned
into an outsider and probably dress more in
black than you used to. Your depression is
eating you up and tearing you apart and the
worst part is that no one is willing to help,
or so it seems. In school you are often by
yourself or one single friend and you rarely
seem to be truly happy anymore. Your sad,
distant eyes and constant frown seems glued to
your face and you need a saviour from this
world. You may turn to music for understanding
and sing/scream along in the lyrics to get rid
of some pain. You are not very open about your
problems to your family/friends, and wish that
they would just notice it and make it go away.
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Told ya.

Listening to: Tell me why it hurts/MYMP
Feeling: productive

View of life
POSTED AT 06:28 PM

hottie_ice

Is there a room for my gayer pursuits?
Life is nonetheless an ephemeral consolation.
Life offer more than vain—more than these caustic sensibilities.

As old cliché said: “Watch your life as it progresses.”

But does it progress anyhow?

Rather, life is all but a struggle. Debasing my perspective of it. Emasculate my dreams and leaving my ambition asunder.

My life is forsaken that sometimes I feel controlled. Nothing turns out to be ok, and while I have to live this ill-fated life, the gods are even laughing at me...

Having what I want is all that matters, more on a lifelong contentment. And to whomever deity this desire is addressed, to which I assume a wish of mine will be granted, I’d be eternally grateful—satisfied that is. And just one.

Watching: Filter
Feeling: tired

Suckfest
POSTED AT 06:16 PM

hottie_ice

There are a lot of schoolwork to get stressful of, pop quizzes, unnecessary projects and sometimes lengthy thesis papers. Those craps came in your way—of course for the sake of your grade you’ll get it to be done, or doing it for the sake of ditching it. Beyond all reason I hate schoolwork. There are exceptions though, and I get use to some but it’s all a mindset.

But what I really hate the most are those essays or reflection papers that are asking you to tell about your love ones, the most important to your life, your “savior” and other crap in the sort.
Early this morning, as in the first period, yes a good jumpstart for me—Literature class, a narrative essay about my “Beowulf in life” godammit! Yeah, like urgh...! duh as in Beowulf, you might be asking WTF?!
To further it out, it’s like writing about you hero in life, ‘my knight in shining armor’ or a thing that sucks—I mean I regard it to nobody, there no hero in my stinking life.

I don’t deserve to encounter such suckfest amidst my exultant mood that morning. I was brain-drained, dumbfounded and so pissed about it. Blargh! Damn morning!

~~~
Anyway, we won at that nutri-jingle thingy. Nice one!

Reading: Anglo-Saxons Chronicle
Listening to: guns&roses
Feeling: off

Reveries
POSTED AT 05:59 PM

hottie_ice

Summer. How I miss it. Silent Reveries. Daydreaming. Relaxing. Sitting.
Nothing.

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> I just love this day, despite the big disturbance of that recollection has brought of, still a memory of something significant came into my mind. Can't tell.
Listening to: Eternity. mid
Feeling: contemplative