Entries for December, 2004
December 3rd, 2004
4 days vacation POSTED AT 03:37 PM kahapon pa ako kating-kati mag RO, hanggang ngayon di pa rin...naiinis na ako...di na ako umaasenso...naubusan ako ng load,,,walang bakante sa computer station at kailangan ko nang tumakas sa rents..!! naku! andyan na sila! ... ... ... wala na naku...sabik na talaga ako maglaro, di ko na mapigilan sarili ko, adik na ako aaminin ko na, sabog...ako ang hirap ng ganito may mga espesyal na pangangailangan ang tagal pa ng miyerkules... malas pa magpapabunot ako ng ngipin!  buti pa siya may sakkat--->  ako wala!
Reading: great retaliations Listening to: suntok sa buwan Feeling: thristy--of somethin critique
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December 3rd, 2004
Quiz muna POSTED AT 04:01 PM  You're an Angst writer! What kind of writer are you? brought to you by Quizilla what?! is this true? [just for the sake of making an entry  ]
Listening to: whoa Feeling: shocked |
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December 6th, 2004
Reminisce POSTED AT 05:34 PM ...you know why I don’t? Is simply because I wasn’t able to do what I want to do on such span of time. I’d like to recall...when I was 11, I was a victim of inferiority complex at 12 I’ve experienced changes as a sign of puberty, my attitude change and tried desperately to fit in but was looked down and didn’t succeeded, As I struggled to lift myself up and cope for the bad consequences, my reputation was deteriorated more and more... I cried for help but nobody lend a shoulder or an ear. At 13, I knew the meaning of “discrimination”, and I’m a product of such. I’m surrounded by unhealthy people, too much pride among their cruel personalities, and I’m tired of people holding me down. I’m normal back then, so why...? At school when I walk in the corridors, as if I’m different that I wasn’t one of them and that I was despicable. They tend to like me, praise me as a sign of their displeasure against me...sarcastically. People didn’t treat me what I really deserve. That time I carried myself into ominous oblivion...rebellion and even suicide. I attempt such and it didn’t work at all. I just felt the pain of cutting and still breathe again, air. Good thing I was tugged back into reality. I let time pass by...forget everything...all the pain...and nobody healed me...I wasted time on waiting my sanctuary but the healing really takes time. So at 14, I felt ample bliss. I was healthy  I surround myself with people who are chaste, who would accept as I am. But misfortunes are yet to come. – I was BUSTED! By a guy whom I really like, that it came to the point I merely courting him. [How pathetic!] I just knew he didn’t like me...all of me. Ouch...! ang sakit nun! Tapos nun di ko na alam kung pano pa magmahal That didn’t cause me restraint, actually it was an advantage for me... Merely turning 15, just the recent months, I was indifferent, stoic, unhealthy. I hated everything from studies to friends. That is why I didn’t excel at anything. I didn’t know what cause me this, hatred and dejection. I was cold, dark, silent. I just knew I was missing something. I needed to be fed up with—great caress. I had seek for it and I found something... I hope ‘time’ will guarantee me grandeur healing... ...so past is past, then is then, now is now. It felt better...my prayers were answered... 
Reading: Vogue Nov. 04 Listening to: Like you-Slapshock Feeling: pessimistic |
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December 7th, 2004
B-day POSTED AT 06:36 PM as a favorite post tanda ko na pala,,,sana kakaiba ang buhay sa hinaharap  tsaka...salamat sa mga bumati, happe bi-dey na rin sa iba dyan!What I wish....?  1. Sanity 2. Spongebob ice cream [with toy!] 3. pa-upgrade na ang mabagal naming kompyter! [sana.. lang] yun muna... Listening to: Break Away Feeling: jubilant... |
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December 9th, 2004
Loaded POSTED AT 06:02 PM Its always like that when I'm ask to write the time it will be judge whether it is good or bad writing, my passion will not dare to exist and when I write for nothing its quite good... Well another entry made for the sake of adding... Too many longtest ahead and had no time to study, weekends are filled with pre-holiday treats...and I'm toast... 
Reading: My rough 15 Listening to: My Boo Feeling: UNaccomplished |
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December 13th, 2004
My wish fullfillment Carol POSTED AT 05:06 PM as a favorite post ~Although this may not fit to the tune of the song...here are some of my cravings and desires--on 12 days of X-mas On the first day of Christmas my true love gave to me...  The gift of freezing time Two transcending hands Three thousand karats [3m] Four Valkyries descending Five steps to a problem free planet Six adoring men Seven shots of wisdom  Eight years of Crusader hood Nine inches of size loss [but I’m not fat] Ten weeks in the catwalk Eleven drops of blissful fantasies Twelve wish granted 
Reading: Holy soul Listening to: Independent Women Feeling: hopeful yet hopeless |
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December 15th, 2004
Simbang Gabi POSTED AT 09:48 PM Totoo nga ba, kapag binuo mo ang siyam o sampung araw ng simbang gabi ay magkakatotoo ang anumang hiling mo? Nabuo ko na ito at humiling pero di nagkatotoo, maaring hindi nga talaga o tunay na imposible ang hiniling ko. Ay kung anuman. Dapat ako’y magsisimba, umaasang buuin ulit at humiling sa pangalawang pagkakataon. Nangangarap na maisakatuparan ang mga gustong mangyari, ang mahirap na abutin na pangarap. [asa pa ko noh...] Pero ang mga plano kong buuin ito para kapakanan ko o pang aliw lamang sa disperas ng pasko ay wala na, wag ka na umaasa, Nagdalawang isip ako, kung pupunta ako o hindi dahil mayroon din akong kailangang tapusin na mga takdang aralin. Ngunit bigo, nasira lahat. Piniral na naman ng mga magulang ko ang kanilang pagkabalasubas at ka walang hiya. Di na ako sumama. Unang gabi, pinagsisisihan ko ng labis. Nakakapikon na sila, sobra na talaga. Palibhasa mga talunan as bahay. Ang mga hinayupak na yon! Sumama loob ko at hinayaang na lang. Sisimba-simba sila, tapos pagdating dito, kung magsalita kala mo abogado sa galing di naman. Punyemas na buhay toh! Bukas, mag-isa akong pupunta at magsimba upang makatanggap ng biyaya as diyos katulad ng mahabang pasensya at magsakripsisyo sa kapwa na walang kapalit. Kailangan ko nito... 
Reading: Da Vinci's code Listening to: What you waiting for-Gwen Stefani Feeling: aggravated |
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December 17th, 2004
Pre-holiday commotions POSTED AT 05:30 PM We were castigated by our history teacher’s admonitions of what had just happen. Well, honestly I’m not part of the conspiracy. My deceptions are discreet no one could ever decipher. But the leakage is such pestilence it shouldn’t just spread like that. Am I against or am I tolerating this? This is odd. The thing that really happen was, all of us sophomores were accused of cheating [which they really did]. And really, they had to admit. Our flimflams were...spilled in the wrong place. Sigh. Its so fast...next thing I knew, it is already Christmas. Honestly, I’m not ready for it. My schedule were hectic I don’t know what is my next step. But hopefully, its one big hell of a party! My relatives from states just arrived and my uncle will soon follow. [Gee... I can’t wait for my Chucks ] ---and spend X-mas here in the Philippines. The closer it gets, the excitement arise. I don’t want this to start cause I don’t want also this to be over. No words could explain. I just want to say that the moment the clock tick to the X-mas Eve, memories will come back...It’s just been so good; I can’t tell what emotions trigger upon me. Everything is falling on the contrary this season and this is not right, I’ve got burn-out for the past few days and bliss shall linger... I’m not practicing what it is accustomed during Friday afternoon. I got stuff to do. Maybe for the next few days I will not consume Internet hours for the meantime. Hehe... time to change! 
Reading: Pink Listening to: Hari ng Sablay Feeling: tired |
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December 24th, 2004
X-mas! POSTED AT 01:11 PM as a favorite post  still... the picture is insignificant but...anyway [img:490173] Reading: Harry Potter Order of the Pheonix Listening to: All I have Feeling: senti,,, |
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December 26th, 2004
New template POSTED AT 09:30 PM I dont want to be labeled as copycat and besides this is created for customized blog skins...anyway its just temporary. *the authentic kada rethro batian... < try this > yung mga dulo ng darili nyo sa kanan at kaliwang kamay ay pagdugtungin... < like this > '--- ---' tapos do the wave.... hehe...go Kada-retz! Peace Out! Listening to: Karma Feeling: accomplished but hostile |
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